Letters to my Babies (yes, I said babies!!!) - Week 7

We are so thankful for this pregnancy! After sharing our journey through infertilty on the blog, I knew I wanted to log our newfound 40 week journey of pregnancy on the blog as well. Not knowing if I’ll ever be able to experience pregnancy again, I have chosen to log our pregnancy by writing occasional letters to our babies. The letters will keep my readers posted on how we are doing each week, but the letters will also, someday, be something that our little ones can go back and read over, as a reminder of how much he or she was loved from the very beginning of their existence. You can read week 5 here. 

 

 

Well, at seven weeks we found out that there is not just one of you inside of me, but TWO of you!!!  I can not tell you how blessed we are to be given such a gift!  It’s so surreal to think that a few months ago, I didn’t know if I would ever be able to get pregnant, and now I’m told that I’m pregnant with TWINS!!!

We have been suspecting twins from the very beginning of this pregnancy.  The initial blood work indicated that there might have been more than one of you when the test results revealed my HCG levels multiplying so fast.  However, only an ultrasound could confirm our suspicion.  Our very first ultrasound was a few days ago, and when the doctor gave me a big grin and held up two fingers during the first ultrasound, Mommy and Daddy were ecstatic to see the image of twin babies on the screen!  Two sacs were immediately seen, and the first heartbeat was detected rather quickly.  The doctor had a harder time finding the second heartbeat, which certainly brought a few moments of uneasiness, but once the second heartbeat was finally detected, happy tears of relief, gratitude and pure joy filled both Mommy and Daddy’s eyes.  It was so special to see your little heartbeats during our first ultrasound.  At only seven weeks, you have already begun developing major organs and have begun to sprout tiny arms and legs.  You are now the size of blueberries.  Still so very tiny, yet so full of life!

 

 I wish I could say that the effects on Mommy’s body were as tiny as you are, but that is not the case at all!  Mommy is still very tired and takes naps as often as I can.  Even less enjoyable than the fatigue is the constant state of nausea in which I now live.  I haven’t really been throwing up, so I guess that is a good thing.  I know it could be much worse, but my stomach feels queasy most of time.  It’s certainly not just in the morning, although I wish it was:/  I often wake up in the middle of the night feeling sick, so I quietly sneak downstairs to grab some saltine crackers or a piece of toast to help settle my stomach before trying to go back to bed. 

 

     Food aversions are also a big thing for me right now.  I swear NOTHING  to eat sounds good!  It’s making it really hard for me to consume healthy foods, like vegis, that I know my body needs.  I do drink a spinach, banana, apple and pear smoothie most days, but that’s about the only fresh produce I can seem to stomach lately.  You have no idea how much I wish I could just eat my normal diet again.  I find that I am eating a lot of scrambled eggs and toast, and I snack on wheat thins throughout the day.  I am getting plenty of water, and I am doing my best to down a glass of organic, no-sugar added, prune juice on a regular basis to help with all of the lovely digestive issues that come along with being pregnant.  I swear I have never felt so bloated in all my life!  And according to my research, the only thing I can do about it is to drink prune juice, which if you can’t tell, Mommy HATES the taste of! 

 

I know that I must not just feel bloated, but I must look bloated too.  I know this, because today a stranger asked how far along I was!!!  I wanted to cry when I said, “only seven weeks.”  I did quickly add, “but it’s twins”, to hopefully justify the fact that someone actually asked me if I was pregnant so early in this pregnancy:/  Knowing that you are only the size of blueberries, I am very aware that you are not the reason my shorts felt a little tight this morning.  I completely blame this on progesterone.  It’s a lovely hormone that slows down digestion to make sure the both of you are getting all the nutrients you need.  While it is making you healthy and well, it is making Mommy feel bloated and miserable.  My stomach looks and feels like a giant balloon!  And just to make sure I have enough progesterone to keep you healthy and well, I have been prescribed additional 200mg of progesterone daily for the past five weeks, and I still have an additional five weeks to go before hopefully being told I no longer have to take it.  Inspite of the way I may look and feel, I am thankful for all of it!  I'm thankful because it means I am indeed pregnant, and that's something I will never take for granted!

 

Daddy has been a big help since I have been feeling sick so much of the time.  He helps take care of the laundry and basic house work that I am just too tired to get to.  He has also been great to run errands for me and pick up groceries on the weekends that I just don’t feel like getting out of bed.  When I do get a sudden burst of energy and have a few hours where I feel human again, Daddy has been great to try to get me out of the house.  Today, I had a few hours when I didn’t feel sick (YAY!), so Daddy took me out to dinner to celebrate the fact that we are having twins!  Although two bites into my meal, I was finished with it.  It’s the same meal I always order at this particular restaurant, but today it made my stomach turn!  Ah, the joys of pregnancy:)  Daddy also took me to get a pedicure, and best of all, we went to a few baby stores to get an idea of all of the things we can expect to purchase for your arrival.  I warned your father to not get too freaked out about the cost of having one baby, let alone two babies!  But you should have seen your father’s face when he saw for himself how much everything costs.  In all honesty, we are not really too concerned about the money part of having two babies.  We spent a lot of money to try to conceive the both of you, and we know that it will take a lot of money to provide for you.  Yet, somehow God always provides our financial needs, and we know He will prove Himself faithful once again.

 

 

Feeling beyond blessed,

Mommy