Motherhood makes me second-guess everything I've ever known about raising children. Makes me question if I'm doing or saying the right thing. Makes me wonder what impact my choices will have on my children.
Motherhood makes the love I feel for my children greater than the anger I feel when they make poor choices. It is a love that is unconditional. It is a selfless love.
Motherhood brings me to my knees when I feel overwhelmed and need grace to get me through my day.
And motherhood brings me to my knees again when I feel overwhelmed with gratitude and can't help but thank God for each day He has given me with my three precious gifts. These three little ones He has given to me to love and raise up. What a gift! And yet, what a responsibility!
Yes, without a doubt, motherhood has changed me.
If you've grown up in the church, then chapter one of 1 Samuel is oh-so-familiar. Hannah’s story is one where her desire to become a mother was so great that she found herself heartbroken, desperately pleading with God for a child. I can relate. Perhaps that's why I love Hannah's story so much. My eyes still get teary-eyed every time I read verse 27 of chapter one.
I realize that I can not make life decisions for my children, as we have all been given free-will. What the future holds for my children is still unknown and will be determined by the choices they make along the way. No matter what my children's lives look like over the next 20-30 years, I hope I leave a legacy for them that can someday be described as: a faithful mother of prayer who loved her children with her whole heart, but loved God more. That’s what I think of when I think of Hannah.
Eli and Hannah both left behind a legacy of their parenthood, as will all of us who have been given the gift of raising children. I hope I have a legacy like Hannah's. How about you?